The absence of those tears

The one you find you think is right... is never right it seems,
You long for her to love you... but she loves you in your dreams,
For though I try to love you... to show what love could be,
The bridge you could not cross... was to love and care for me.

Now when I stare into the mirror... I see the mirror's crack,
And I search alone for truth... of what I, myself, must lack,
But is the love that I possess... too wicked for you to see,
Why could I not be loved... for simply being me?

Now all I have are pictures... and the time I spent with you,
Hoping that all my dreams... would shortly all come true,
But I never saw your tears... when I turned and walked away,
And the absence of those tears... said much more than words could say.

For the pain within grew quickly... and never left my side,
And though hidden deep inside me... my pain I just can't hide,
Now life for me has fractured... and my heart has split in two,
Since the Love I once loved... became the Love I once knew.

I hold onto hope forever... that one day you'll be mine,
And in some distant time and place... our souls at last entwine,
But, I fear that when you realize... it was me that you adore,
We will have wasted precious moments... for, alas, I'll be ignored.

For to God I'll journey forward... to walk in heavens field,
And to anger, hate and torment... my body shall not yield,
For I could not hate the love... that caused my heart to see,
Oh, Lord, why could I not be loved... for simply being me?